Today was stressful. Of course, it was a Monday, we dismissed early, ran a modified schedule, and I swear someone hid caffeine pills in my son’s drinks. By this evening, I was praying for bedtime. I was the in-house jungle gym for both boys and our dog this evening. I was ready to go insane by 7 pm. I love my family dearly, but Mommy needed some solitude.
It was 8 pm and I hadn’t really had an opportunity to even give today’s first a thought. In fact, I had all but abandoned the idea thinking if the day ended without me in an asylum or running out of my house screaming, it was a successful day. But I just couldn’t do it. I could not have come this far — two months — only to wuss out tonight.
Then it came to me. I really could use some meditation. I am a big believer in prayer, but meditation — sitting in peace and quiet with the absence of thoughts — that is a foreign concept to me. I have often read of how meditation has been shown to reduce stress and have health benefits, so that sounded good to me. Online I found this site which offers step-by-step instructions to meditation for beginners.
I will tell you, this website has a definite spiritual bent. It is apparent that for the creators of this site, meditation is not just a healthy habit but a religious practice. Any place I felt uncomfortable because it sounded as if worshipping or praying to a deity other than my God, I eliminated that part. Otherwise, I found it really user friendly — especially for a newbie like myself. There were aids you could use such as videos and music. That was a nice touch. I found the music especially helpful as it drowned out other incidental sounds in my home.
I am a skeptic for much of this. The text talks about feeling a cool breeze emanating from your palms and head. I felt what could be described as that, but I think it’s because the idea was planted in my head rather than due to chakras opening. However, in the end, it doesn’t really matter what caused it. I finished my several minutes much more relaxed and ready for bed. I think it was a great activity and a welcome end to the day.